Monday, April 28, 2008

found faithful

I've been doing a study through 1 & 2 Samuel over the last few weeks and months. I came to realize that there's so much in there that I either missed over the years or just never read. One story has stuck out in my mind, and I haven't been able to let it go. The story is out of 1 Samuel 13, and here's the jist of it... Saul had been reigning as King of Israel for 2 years and had built up a great army. Samuel had given instruction to Saul (1 Samuel 10:8) that he is to wait seven days (until Samuel returns) before doing anything. Samuel had promised to come and show Saul what to do at this point.

The thing that kills me here is that when Saul was anointed King, Samuel prophesied all of this to Saul. He knew what was going to happen, and had been given specific instructions as to what to do, but he does just the opposite... he does what is wise in his own eyes, and disobeys God.

So, Saul gets impatient, and at the end of the seven days, he offers a sacrifice before Samuel has returned. Here's what Samuel's response to Saul's disobedience was:

"You acted foolishly," Samuel said. "You have not kept the command the Lord your God gave you; if you had, he would have established your kingdom over Israel for all time. But now your kingdom will not endure; the Lord has sought out a man after his own heart and appointed him leader of his people, because you have not kept the Lord's command."

Talk about a humbling experience... Saul acted out of impatience and selfishness, and look where it got him. He gave away every blessing and opportunity that God could have handed over to him, and it was now about to pass along to David - a man who wasn't perfect, but who sought God and was a man after God's own heart.

This just hit me in between the eyes when I read it. I think it's because it's something that we all face at one point or another. It may not be over a war, but it could be over many things in our own lives. God gives us instructions, asks for our obedience, and we can't be patient enough to see it through. We deny God the opportunity to bless us or to use us because we are impatient and feel like our way will work out better.

Patience is something that I'm still learning, and it's not easy. I like to be in charge (imagine that!) and it's hard for me to wait on God's best or his answer sometimes. I feel like I can just "fix things" so that they'll be just right, and all the while, I'm just messing things up. Oh, to be found faithful and obedient. He is faithful, and He's never late.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

late night musings

I can't sleep... too much to think about.

so, I'm going to write.

here's another itunes update... now I'm looking at my "play count" to see what songs I've listened to the most... here are the top two culprits:

  • "none but Jesus" by hillsong united : this song has become one of my favorite worship songs over the last couple of years. it speaks to where I am in life and it's what I desire - "there is no one else for me, none but Jesus." (play count: 147 - one night I fell asleep to it on repeat and I think that's why... ha!)

  • "glorious day" by jeff johnson : yet another new favorite worship tune. I love the fact that it's an old hymn... such truth in the words. it's a song of celebration. "living he loved me, dying he saved me, buried he carried my sins far away... oh glorious day!" (play count: 104)

I've been listening to a lot of old music lately... stuff that reminds me of when I was younger. I love it! if I told you the names of what I've been listening to, you would most likely laugh at me, but that's ok... doesn't bother me!

I think I'm on the verge of another great reading kick, so I'm excited. I love reading during the summer.... sitting outside with a good book, pretending like I'm at the beach.

I'm excited about summer and I'm dying to go to the beach... but that probably won't happen until the end of july, so I'll just have to wait. this summer includes: two weddings (orlando and nyc), camp, mission trip to canada, some sort of family vacation (which includes a trip to little rock... woohoo...), and I'm sure some other fun and sundry events. yay for summer and flip flops! I'm ready. here's a picture of me at the beach last summer...

me at the beach

my birthday is also coming up, so that's exciting... I'll be 24 on may 13! wow, I feel old. it just feels like the last few years of my life have gone by so fast, but I'm doing my best to live life to the fullest and enjoy every day! I'm ready for the adventures ahead, and I think 24 is going to be amazing. watch out, here I come!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

i will not take my love away...

this song has become a favorite... I love the lyrics. a great picture of how God cares for us.

"I will not take my love away" by matt wertz

I will not take my love away
When praises cease and seasons change
while the whole world turns the other way
I will not take my love away
I will not leave you all alone
When striving leads you far from home
And there's no yield for what you've sown
I will not leave you all alone
I will give you what you need
In plenty or in poverty
Forever, always, look to me
And I will give you what you need
I will not take my love away

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

official dogsitter?

that's my current title. dogsitter. housesitter. and a host of other things.

while we're talking about dogsitting, let me just tell you that I'm watching 2 cute miniature schnauzers (daniel fox, if you're reading this, I love your dogs.)

the funny thing about this though is that one of the dogs, lexus, is deaf and almost blind. have you ever tried to coerce a deaf and blind dog to do something? I'm guessing you haven't, and let me tell you that it's not easy. I watched them last week and again this week, and it's getting more and more challenging. I was late to a meeting last week because I couldn't get her to come inside.

I love dogs... it'll be awhile before I have one though. I'm definitely going to wait until I have my own house, but you can count on me having one after that.

now on to the housesitting thing... this morning I was asleep and was about to get up when all at once, my cell phone starts ringing, the house alarm is going off, and I hear our realtor talking downstairs. I immediately jump up, throw on some clothes and run downstairs. in the process, I hang up on the alarm company twice, and try to compose myself as our realtor and the pool guy he brought are standing in the foyer. my dad then calls because the alarm company has called him and he's worried that someone is coming in to get me. I explain what happened and he passes along the message. the realtor apologizes and tells me that he rang the doorbell twice, and I inform him that the doorbell doesn't work! :) anyway, things settled down after that, but I've made the official decision that I don't like living by myself. I hope this doesn't last too much longer! from what I've heard, a couple of people are interested in the house, which is good and bad.

that's all for now. I'm tired and I'm going to turn the alarm on with the hopes that it doesn't scare me to death again tomorrow.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

i'm not gonna...

...write you a love song.

I love sara bareilles' new song titled "love song." it's on the list of my ever-increasing "purchased" playlist on itunes. I think that music speaks louder than ordinary words sometimes, so here's a glimpse into my head... I'll give you the last 10 songs I've purchased from itunes.... from earlier this month to last week.

  • "love song" by sara bareilles - I love the jazzy feel of this song... and I think it was the free song of the week the week I bought it.

  • "it's all wrong, but it's alright" by michael johns - oh how I am loving the current season of american idol. I love checking the tivo tuesday and wednesday nights these days and catching up. oddly enough, this is a dolly parton song... can't really stand her. this was one of my favorite performances though, and I love michael johns. it was a heartbreaker last week when he had to go home. mark my words though, he's going to be big. love it.

  • "across the universe" by michael johns - see, I told you that I love his voice. he's got this amazing edge to his voice that makes it unique. this was an awesome song during beatles week.

  • "stop and stare" - the ep by onerepublic - I totally love their sound and I love the title track to this ep. the other songs are great too - "last goodbye" and "too easy"

  • "shout to the Lord" by the american idol top 8 - ok, so I'm still trying to figure this one out, but I love the song, so I bought it. I've been reading josh griffin's blog lately (the hs pastor at saddleback) and he posted the link to the video and it had some interesting feedback from his readers. michael told us we should all check his blog out, and it's proved to be hilarious and a great read.

  • "praying for time" by carrie underwood - I promise I'm not a total american idol freak, you just happened to catch me at a moment where there have been some great songs! this was a live performance on "idol gives back" last week, and I love carrie underwood anyway, so I've listened to it a lot this week.

  • "bleeding love" by leona lewis - this girl has an incredible voice... I heard her sing on tv a few weeks ago, and I love this song. simon cowell is predicting that she's the next big thing. you should take a listen.

ok, so there you have it. I'll keep you posted on what else I find. I've had an interesting few weeks, and God is really stretching and challenging me. I can't wait to share what He's doing, but that's going to have to wait. I promise I'm about to start writing here more... I'm working on it. I'm about to head to bed early... this has been a long weekend... dine by design friday night, 9th grade girls sleepover and painting pottery friday night (we stayed up til almost 4am... not as much fun as it used to be! ha!), went to the zoo with some fun friends today and saw the new penguin exhibit. I love penguins! if I can figure out how to put pictures on here, I'll put a few up. that's all for now!