Right now, God's taking me on a journey that I can't put into words. He's asked me to give up some things, to sacrifice some things, and to hold on tight for the task at hand. I'm humbled that God would choose me and would use me, and I don't write any of this to bring glory to myself, but to honor and praise the one who has released me from my chains and has set me free to be able to do what He alone has called me to do.
I started a new chapter in my story on Sunday, and I can't wait to see how it all unfolds. The next few weeks are not going to be easy, but I trust that God will show himself to me through this process.
I'm not trying to be cryptic, but maybe you can relate to me better if I don't tell you exactly what I'm going through... just that God is at work, and he's called me to do something that's not easy, but with his strength alone, I'll be able to do. My heart's desire is to be transparent in every aspect of my life, so that others can learn from me and that I can be held accountable, but I also don't want to be a distraction from the one who should be getting all of the glory.
The last season of my life where I walked this familiar journey with God was a season of preparation for things that, at the time, were beyond my comprehension. It was a time of preparation for me to cling to God like I had never done before, and surrender my life and my desires so that He might be glorified. Because when that season of preparation ended, Satan came at me, all guns firing. I think that regardless of whether or not I agreed to be obedient, I still would have faced the same heartache and trials, and I am so thankful that I was obedient to God's call to prepare.
I don't say any of this because I have it all figured out or have everything together, because I don't. I'm just me... I'm Mary Margaret and I make mistakes. I'm just taking things day by day, moment by moment, so that God can be glorified in and through me.
Sorry if this doesn't make much sense... I think this was more for me today than for you, but it's where I find myself today. So, my encouragement at the end of this is to press on... God is at work, and if you don't already see Him at work in your life, ask Him to do something big. He'll do it. He's just like that.
Come, let us return to the Lord.
He has torn us to pieces
but he will heal us;
he has injured us
but he will bind up our wounds.
After two days he will revive us;
on the third day he will restore us,
that we may live in his presence.
Let us acknowledge the LORD;
let us press on to acknowledge him.
As surely as the sun rises,
he will appear;
he will come to us like the winter rains,
like the spring rains that water the earth.